mozzaok
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I have had a seriously good run. I committed myself to hedonistic over indulgence like it was illegal. And mostly it was. I will not die thinking life short changed me. That said, I have lived to more than double what I ever expected, and I could shuffle off happily, at any time, if I were the only person with a stake in my existence. But I am not. Hence I labor on in a body that no longer performs at a level that allows me to pursue the interests that gave me the greatest joys in life. No, I am not talking about sex, that area is impeded only by my lack of aerobic stamina. Rather I speak of my favourite past times of surfing, and climbing, which I no longer indulge in at all.
If, I decide to start eating healthy, and exercising, I will probably start surfing again, even if only on a SUP(stand up paddleboard, for the uninitiated), but that is a big IF.
By neglecting myself, and my personal indulgences, I have become a far less positive influence in the lives of those that love me, because to truly have the ability to give to others, you have to give to yourself first. That is how the self destructive cycle of depression brings people low, where they lose love of self, love of life, and belief that they can maintain a positive influence in the life of those they love.
People are all very different in just how fragile they are, and what some do not even notice, others are weighed down to the point of being crushed. So, instead of being too judgemental about choices others make, give your best efforts to loving yourself, and those you care about, and see how that works for you.
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