Persophone by Dead Can Dance.
(great clip too)
This song always haunts me.
Married and struggling to get out of 2nd gear.
Met another woman - and the 'business' potential between our creativity was great. It attracted a lot of supporters and it looked like the coins would fall like rain.
...but.
We fell in love. We crossed that line and the love was incredibly intense as I fell away from my marriage.
But the love-bond of my marriage never left and I found myself stretched across an ever widening chasm trying to hold onto both. As you can imagine, it doesn't work like that.
So my 'affair' suddenly turned for the worse and in the end, the other woman killed me off (dragging me through the courts, etc) because I wasn't as good as I thought I was. My marriage crumbled and I found myself fall into that chasm of darkness - away from both sides that moved away.
I deserved all that I got. I crossed that line and failed to keep going and everything/everyone walked away as I lay in bed holding my gutlessness in foetal position. A pain that scuttled my life for 4 years.
Many years later, tried to move on - but no, my marriage was my only 'card' to play and it is long gone. Both wife and daughter have turned their backs on me, because of my betrayal, having moved on.
So now I belong to the void and there I will always remain. Unable to go back, unable to go forward for there can be only one.
As for the guys who could make it to the other side - well, it's always a poor compensation in the end anyway - just a slower death. You only get one chance. Keep it simple stupid.
https://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=dead+can+dance+persephone&&view=detail&mid=...