Lisa Jones wrote on May 15
th, 2023 at 10:02pm:
I honestly don’t understand how anyone can get past a 2nd drink. For me...that 1st glass of Shiraz or Merlot over dinner is exquisitely tantalising.
Then that refill turns up and I oh boy ...I just can’t drink it. Why? It doesn’t have the sensational taste of the 1st glass. I am left struggling to enjoy/finish that 2nd glass. My husband usually ends up drinking the 2nd glass of wine for me.
As I say, I like the taste of scotch. But, I can only drink about 500mL of scotch before my hyperinsulinemia kicks in and I have to go sleep for 4 hours. Because of my schizophrenia, I take to the drink to overcome whatever PTSD issues I have had. Earlier this year, I went 3 weeks without any alcohol. But the stress just kicked in from returning memories of old events from long past. You would think that I would just resolve my subconscious issues with conscious counter measures. But, alcohol seems to fast track me obliterating the PTSD as a "not my problem anymore" measure.
Quote:I guess I’ll never understand people who drink a lot of alcohol. I’m beginning to think that they too only enjoy the first drink like I do BUT unlike me they then embark on some bizarre journey of self sabotage/self flagellation. It’s as if they’re punishing themselves for something that’s happened in their past but they have convinced themselves that the alcohol is there to help them with facing the demons of the past. 🥺😔
I don't enjoy drinking anymore. I bought a couple bottles of Wolf Blass red label shiraz, and used my wine glasses for the first time. I had one bottle one night. The other bottle I finished the next night. It was a good buzz, and I was hoping that would be it for my drinking. But no, I bought another bottle of scotch a few days later and got stuck into that.
My body has given up the ghost for being able to drink much. I think I have to cut out the alcohol from here onwards. I have had this cough that I figure is alcohol related. And I know that I would be rid of the virus if I just went sober. With winter coming up, and me starting a TAFE course, I want to be focused on doing well. Plus, I have my medical coming up that needs me to be physically well.
So, nup I won't be selected as a moderator, let alone a GMod, unless I can prove myself.