Well my marriage was ok, but I sorta was never happy. I tried my best for 6 years and even at one time believed that it would work out.
...but that was when I met her upon a Writing Forum.
Before long I had moved down into the Riverina (glad to finally be away from my wife) for a job that promised $1000 a day. Within a few weeks, 'she' came up from Melbourne to visit and it was like 'naturally' true love though nothing actually happened until the last day together.
Then things rocked and rolled for me as I had to come to grips with an upset wife. Juggling a terrible job with getting up at 3am. Doing an average 1200km a week via work and visits to my daughter. Then the cracks appeared in my 'love affair' with the other woman. She was seperated but still living with her Ex and I was living alone but not quite 'officially' seperated. So eventually I lost the other woman and now I can't go back to a marriage that will be 'divorced' soon. Hell, I think she's moved on with a neigbour (he even opened the door for me at my daughter's party when I had to leave

).
I still 'miss' the other woman dreadfully and obviously she doesn't answer my letters and has cut all ties with me. I'm tired of trying to get her back.
I wrote up a 'story' that she and I collaborated upon and I wrote it upon a wall in a (Biffle) Bird Hide in Leeton that we both 'got to know our love for one another' in one day long ago. I think I'll leave it at that. Mabe I'll post the story here?
Anyway, here I am. All alone with no marriage to go back to, although I do enjoy seeing my daughter.
And no 'her' to move forward to either.
...what to do? And yes, the depression really does hurt.