Well my marriage was ok, but I sorta was never happy. I tried my best for 6 years and even at one time believed that it would work out.
...but that was when I met her upon a Writing Forum.
Before long I had moved down into the Riverina (glad to finally be away from my wife) for a job that promised $1000 a day. Within a few weeks, 'she' came up from Melbourne to visit and it was like 'naturally' true love though nothing actually happened until the last day together.
Then things rocked and rolled for me as I had to come to grips with an upset wife. Juggling a terrible job with getting up at 3am. Doing an average 1200km a week via work and visits to my daughter. Then the cracks appeared in my 'love affair' with the other woman. She was seperated but still living with her Ex and I was living alone but not quite 'officially' seperated. So eventually I lost the other woman and now I can't go back to a marriage that will be 'divorced' soon. Hell, I think she's moved on with a neigbour (he even opened the door for me at my daughter's party when I had to leave  :().
I still 'miss' the other woman dreadfully and obviously she doesn't answer my letters and has cut all ties with me. I'm tired of trying to get her back.
I wrote up a 'story' that she and I collaborated upon and I wrote it upon a wall in a (Biffle) Bird Hide in Leeton that we both 'got to know our love for one another' in one day long ago. I think I'll leave it at that. Mabe I'll post the story here?
Anyway, here I am. All alone with no marriage to go back to, although I do enjoy seeing my daughter.
And no 'her' to move forward to either.

...what to do? And yes, the depression really does hurt.

Jas, I've done worse.... and it must really suck for you.... but geez.... I think you have the storyline for a killer arty movie. Perhaps knock 100 years off the timeline and make it all soft focused and period drama like - those lacy dresses and coy wistful glances are always hot.

The bird hide bit is a real tear jerker.

You may be sad and down... but I really think you're onto a winner with this one.

It_is_the_Darkness wrote on Jan 23^rd, 2012 at 3:40pm:

Well my marriage was ok, but I sorta was never happy. I tried my best for 6 years and even at one time believed that it would work out. ...but that was when I met her upon a Writing Forum. Before long I had moved down into the Riverina (glad to finally be away from my wife) for a job that promised $1000 a day. Within a few weeks, 'she' came up from Melbourne to visit and it was like 'naturally' true love though nothing actually happened until the last day together. Then things rocked and rolled for me as I had to come to grips with an upset wife. Juggling a terrible job with getting up at 3am. Doing an average 1200km a week via work and visits to my daughter. Then the cracks appeared in my 'love affair' with the other woman. She was seperated but still living with her Ex and I was living alone but not quite 'officially' seperated. So eventually I lost the other woman and now I can't go back to a marriage that will be 'divorced' soon. Hell, I think she's moved on with a neigbour (he even opened the door for me at my daughter's party when I had to leave  :(). I still 'miss' the other woman dreadfully and obviously she doesn't answer my letters and has cut all ties with me. I'm tired of trying to get her back. I wrote up a 'story' that she and I collaborated upon and I wrote it upon a wall in a (Biffle) Bird Hide in Leeton that we both 'got to know our love for one another' in one day long ago. I think I'll leave it at that. Mabe I'll post the story here? Anyway, here I am. All alone with no marriage to go back to, although I do enjoy seeing my daughter. And no 'her' to move forward to either. ...what to do? And yes, the depression really does hurt.

Oh FFS grow some balls and get over it.

How old are you....................14?

$1000 bucks a day.
Well I'd be consoling myself by engaging in every depraved fantasy I ever had.
Check out the hook up sites or hire some pro's.

"Why buy a book when you can join a library"

I'd then save hard for a year or 2 & then travel for the next 18 or so months.

Funny you should mention that Life_Goes_On, for the 'other woman' and I actually did it in the back seat of my car down at Hanging Rock. Those period lacy dresses come straight to mind. We were 'being young' again you could say. As for the 'novel' - um, yes, I'm working on that. Though I'm unsure if males should be writing ...romance?

It_is_the_Darkness wrote on Jan 25^th, 2012 at 11:50am:

Funny you should mention that Life_Goes_On, for the 'other woman' and I actually did it in the back seat of my car down at Hanging Rock. Those period lacy dresses come straight to mind. We were 'being young' again you could say. As for the 'novel' - um, yes, I'm working on that. Though I'm unsure if males should be writing ...romance?

Just change the back seat of the car to the seat of a horse drawn buggy and you're onto a bodice ripping winner.

Use a pen name.... a female one.

Sounds like you're fortunate to still have all your parts to me.

Yep Life_Goes_On, I do have a female 'Pen Name'.

Ahh alas, how cruel it was to discover, after I got married for no reason at all,  that someone I had a lot in common with, someone of whom I met via writing - like this very post itself, someone whose kiss was something more wonderful than...

Trust me, it wasn't born upon the need for an affair. We became friends over the net, then Biffles that actually realised how we felt about each other (and still no kiss) in an actual official 'Biffle' cabin (The Bird Hide). It was after all this, that we crossed the line, let alone the border, together. Then weeks later - I cracked under pressure and I pushed her away and lost her in a maelstrom of uncertainty disabled by fears concerning which course to take? I was also juggling a high pressure traineeship (potential to earn $1000 a day ...lost that too in the end) that had warring factions.
So now, I drive 600km to see my daughter whenever I can and resist the urge to go 600km in the other direction to see 'her' who doesn't want to see me anymore.
Thus I just get on with things here in the middle of nowhere, in a large near empty house working a job that won't have a 'gravy train' at the end of it. *Sigh.
As for my Writing W.I.P, lost that too. 20 years up in smoke during a fit of despair. *Sigh

So I wrote our little story up in the place where we knew we needed one another ...its my 'tinniest glimmer of hope', you could say - that she might see it one day and realise that 'Yes - I do love her'.
I think I have a 2% chance.

Quote:

I think I have a 2% chance.

I think you're being optimistic.

You know Annie.
While I was training towards $1000 a day.
I never expected that 'love' could be such a wonderful thing. Who would think that 'happiness' could be found in another woman.
I mean, we get promoted towards higher wages. Why not love and relationships?
I felt 'myself' in her company - we were alike in many ways. She was totally unexpected and maybe thats why I lost her, for I was unprepared?

...its been months now and I still think of her, still feel the pain of her gone. How could this be?

Let me get this straight before I tell you what I really think.


You met a woman on the internet and started a friendship based on your mutual love of writing. You moved away for an employment opportunity that eventually didn't pan out. You realised this married woman was your soul mate when she came to visit and you had a brief fling while your wife was home looking after your daughter.

Your girlfriend went back to her husband, your wife dumped you and the 'opportunity' for $1000 a day fell through.

Is that about the sum of it?

I felt 'myself' in her company


You felt yourself? I would have thought you should have been feeling her. But hey what do I know.

Annie Anthrax wrote on Jan 26^th, 2012 at 1:53pm:

Let me get this straight before I tell you what I really think. You met a woman on the internet and started a friendship based on your mutual love of writing. You moved away for an employment opportunity that eventually didn't pan out. You realised this married woman was your soul mate when she came to visit and you had a brief fling while your wife was home looking after your daughter. Your girlfriend went back to her husband, your wife dumped you and the 'opportunity' for $1000 a day fell through. Is that about the sum of it?

Not  only that Annie they had sex in a bird hide. Probably beats the back of a ute, but than again.........

I wonder how many minutes the other woman knew there was no $1000 a day before she hit the road.

Ah the romance.

---

Annie will you meet me in the bird hide as I think I am falling in love with you.

We didn't do it in the Hide which coincidently is nicknamed by the locals as the "Biffle Cabin". Biffle meaning something akin to a male/female 'connection' that is just short of marriage but far more than 'just friends'. I just found this out last week. Something more like 'Soulmate', as quoted by Wikipedia.

I actually pushed the other woman away and regretted it straight away - but she wouldn't come back. I was never happy in my marriage ...didn't want to get married (never proposed) let alone have a child - but maybe it was just with her. So I jumped at the chance to steal away regardless of the pay.

None the less, I am alone now - almost 600km between them both. I haven't heard from the other woman in months and it kinda hurts.  It wasn't a mid-life crises otherwise I would have gone for some nice young hoochie that didn't have luggage of her own, etc, etc. I still communicate with my Ex, in regards to my daughter and I make every effort to make sure that my daughter will never feel to blame and that everything will be alright.

I could cross the border into Victoria. Hang out where she works and leave a message on her car without compromising her privacy. But, I don't wanna really do that - so I just suffer in silence knowing full well that I need her. I've suffered chronic depression since I lost her. You might think I'm a cold bastard regarding my Ex - but that's the gist of it ...there was hardly any 'feelings' there at all. We were chalk and cheese.

It really is like two souls that are one - somehow trapped in different worlds.
Anyway, I miss her and feel absolutely pissed that although we
1. Tried (5 steps forward)
2. Failed (15 steps backward)
...we can't manage to get to
3. Success (infinative steps forward)

Should I drive down like a stalker and wait outside the carpark where she works and try to say "Hi - remember me?!"  ::)

I'm trying to get back into Writing but its kinda hard - I feel so half-hearted about everything.

Trust me. I wish I hadn't met her. Truely - because ignorance is bliss ...but she is the one.

By the way. The Forum was 'The Australian Writer's Forum'.
She has left and I've been banned.

Yes Annie ...maybe just 2% is optomistic :(

It_is_the_Darkness wrote on Jan 26^th, 2012 at 4:20am:

Yep Life_Goes_On, I do have a female 'Pen Name'. Ahh alas, how cruel it was to discover, after I got married for no reason at all,  that someone I had a lot in common with, someone of whom I met via writing - like this very post itself, someone whose kiss was something more wonderful than... Trust me, it wasn't born upon the need for an affair. We became friends over the net, then Biffles that actually realised how we felt about each other (and still no kiss) in an actual official 'Biffle' cabin (The Bird Hide). It was after all this, that we crossed the line, let alone the border, together. Then weeks later - I cracked under pressure and I pushed her away and lost her in a maelstrom of uncertainty disabled by fears concerning which course to take? I was also juggling a high pressure traineeship (potential to earn $1000 a day ...lost that too in the end) that had warring factions. So now, I drive 600km to see my daughter whenever I can and resist the urge to go 600km in the other direction to see 'her' who doesn't want to see me anymore. Thus I just get on with things here in the middle of nowhere, in a large near empty house working a job that won't have a 'gravy train' at the end of it. *Sigh. As for my Writing W.I.P, lost that too. 20 years up in smoke during a fit of despair. *Sigh So I wrote our little story up in the place where we knew we needed one another ...its my 'tinniest glimmer of hope', you could say - that she might see it one day and realise that 'Yes - I do love her'. I think I have a 2% chance.

I don't think your writing is ready for publication. Keep practicing, though.

Jas, seriously. Driving 600km to hang around outside an ex-lover's place of employment and leaving a note on her car in these circumtances is not romantic - it's creepy.


It's time to move on. There are plenty of single women out there - nobody is ever The (only) One.

Have some fun.

I agree Annie. Very creepy. That's why i've remained here and only just sent the occassional letter to an address I presume are her parents. Never a reply of course. I know she's gone - but I'm so incredibly sad about it.
I just stepped back to catch a breather and thats when we fell apart and try as might - I just couldn't get her back. She did want to, in a way - but it was like 'fear' somehow kept pushing her away until she was entirely gone and that's when I realised
"I'm a stupid fool!"

I have completely lost her, but I just can't help but miss her for some reason. They say "Plenty of fish in the sea", but as a Diver, there aren't as much fish as they say underwater and anyway - I'm kinda fed up with failed relationships. While married, there was plenty of opportunity for me (hell, I did Nursing for awhile with many a female staff member telling me she wasn't wearing any underwear :o) but I really wanted to make a go of my marriage ...but when I believed things would click ...down I slipped.

I have no regrets about the love I shared with the other woman. It was one of the best times in my life. We just clicked - there was spark, we were 'happy'.
Alas, it was indeed against the odds. I guess it always is with the right woman - eh?

So now here I am ...alone.
What to do?
What to do?
:-/

Wow. First time 'she' came back in my dream last night. A very wonderful and affectionate moment, but that wasn't before we had to have it out.
Sad I know - just a dream.

I know you all may dissagree here (I think?) but it is cruel for someone to find 'true love' after they are married and crueler still to have that 'true love' slip from their fingers. I'm 40+ ...haven't I waited long enough?
My soon former (few months to go) wife and mother of my daughter? Well, originally she was upset and didn't want to loose me. But once she realised that the 'other woman' had moved on, she said over the phone from a neighbours (big) house (his wife left him too. Although he earned $100,000+, she said there was no 'spark') that "She never really loved me. She just didn't want to see me in love with 'her'."
Ouch.

So Annie. By all means, get that Cat-o-9-tails out and whip me into shape here! What am I missing?

It_is_the_Darkness wrote on Jan 27^th, 2012 at 9:40am:

Wow. First time 'she' came back in my dream last night. A very wonderful and affectionate moment, but that wasn't before we had to have it out. Sad I know - just a dream. I know you all may dissagree here (I think?) but it is cruel for someone to find 'true love' after they are married and crueler still to have that 'true love' slip from their fingers. I'm 40+ ...haven't I waited long enough? My soon former (few months to go) wife and mother of my daughter? Well, originally she was upset and didn't want to loose me. But once she realised that the 'other woman' had moved on, she said over the phone from a neighbours (big) house (his wife left him too. Although he earned $100,000+, she said there was no 'spark') that "She never really loved me. She just didn't want to see me in love with 'her'." Ouch. So Annie. By all means, get that Cat-o-9-tails out and whip me into shape here! What am I missing?

Some porn and lube.

;D

Annie Anthrax wrote on Jan 26^th, 2012 at 10:01pm:

Jas, seriously. Driving 600km to hang around outside an ex-lover's place of employment and leaving a note on her car in these circumtances is not romantic - it's creepy. It's time to move on.

BAD advice, Jas. That's what Tony Abbott said and look what happened.

Quote:

So Annie. By all means, get that Cat-o-9-tails out and whip me into shape here! What am I missing?

A hope in hell.

;D

Its ok. Miss her like hell. But the most important person to me right now is my daughter. A FB friend said "Better a father who is away than a father who is absent". It gives me hope and so I drive 600km there and then 600km back to be there for my daughter and when she is older, to be there still when she needs to come to me. Nothing is more important to me than her wellbeing as best as I can.
Maybe when the Divorce is finally settled soon, I may move on with someone else - but I doubt it. I think I've had it.

It_is_the_Darkness wrote on Jan 27^th, 2012 at 10:43pm:

;D Its ok. Miss her like hell. But the most important person to me right now is my daughter. A FB friend said "Better a father who is away than a father who is absent". It gives me hope and so I drive 600km there and then 600km back to be there for my daughter and when she is older, to be there still when she needs to come to me. Nothing is more important to me than her wellbeing as best as I can. Maybe when the Divorce is finally settled soon, I may move on with someone else - but I doubt it. I think I've had it.

Save the crocodile tears. Bet your daughter wasn't on your mind when you were in the bird hide.

Like I said. Nothing 'physical' happened in the Hide. Guess thats why they call it the 'Biffle' cabin. We just knew in each other's eyes that it was love.

The irony was that the plan was for her and her daughter to live with me as well as my daughter. Her Ex would then be free to follow his pursuits of living the high life while he worked the Airlines and my Ex was free to travel the world like she always wanted (my Ex and her Ex are much alike). So in essence, my daughter would have eventually had the good company of a half-sister rather than be a lone child.

Anyway, doesn't matter. Annie is right. No hope in hell.

...just wish the pain of missing her would dissapate.

Time for you to go somewhere where neither of you has ever been to and only you ever wanted to go to.
She has been a big part ofyou - but only a part. Time to see what ther parts you have.

go to dubbo.

dubbo cures everything.

Soren wrote on Jan 27^th, 2012 at 7:48pm:

Annie Anthrax wrote on Jan 26th, 2012 at 10:01pm: Jas, seriously. Driving 600km to hang around outside an ex-lover's place of employment and leaving a note on her car in these circumtances is not romantic - it's creepy. It's time to move on. BAD advice, Jas. That's what Tony Abbott said and look what happened.

HILARIOUS..just as I was beginning to think I was the long lost love of his life>>

can you hear those violins??

I hear them all the time.. I am a romantic soul at heart...or it could be heartburn..or worse..

nup its romance....I am in the library romantic section if you come looking for me jas?

barnaby joe wrote on Jan 28^th, 2012 at 9:41pm:

go to dubbo. dubbo cures everything.

even warts??? not bad!

cods wrote on Jan 29^th, 2012 at 6:24am:

Soren wrote on Jan 27th, 2012 at 7:48pm: Annie Anthrax wrote on Jan 26th, 2012 at 10:01pm: Jas, seriously. Driving 600km to hang around outside an ex-lover's place of employment and leaving a note on her car in these circumtances is not romantic - it's creepy. It's time to move on. BAD advice, Jas. That's what Tony Abbott said and look what happened. HILARIOUS..just as I was beginning to think I was the long lost love of his life>> can you hear those violins?? I hear them all the time.. I am a romantic soul at heart...or it could be heartburn..or worse.. nup its romance....I am in the library romantic section if you come looking for me jas?

There you go, Jas!

...there I go.

"I am a Romantic and I am a Dreamer. I was just thinking of you - today." ...from a song I've been listening too a lot lately.

After so many failed attempts at 'love', even a marriage, even a so-called 'soul-mate' (as she put it) ...I've kinda had enough.
So I've lost a marriage and never could find my Soul-mate again. (Yep, lost a marriage for falling in love with the right woman and lost the right woman for being married.  ::) )
So be it. Time to just be there for my daughter as best I can now.

Time to concentrate on getting on with other things in life now and visit my daughter as often as I can.

*sigh.

Thanks everyone for your responses. Much appreciated.

...its finally raining outside here in the Riverina again.

Picked up me daughter in Sydney (600km drive just for a day's visitation.) when my Ex told me that my 'other woman' had gone back to her 'Ex' husband.

Sheesh!
No wonder the Australian Population doesn't grow.
Money is Good.
Love is Evil.

Quote:

Ex told me that my 'other woman' had gone back to her 'Ex' husband.

What are they?
Sisters or friends?
How would your ex wife know what your girlfriend does?


Quote:

(600km drive just for a day's visitation.)

Mate if your not on your $1000 a day move closer to your daughter.
You'll end up another fatigue statistic driving that far especially if you do it after work then late at night to get back to work.
1200km in 48hrs is not healthy

Dsmithy70 wrote on Feb 4^th, 2012 at 3:15pm:

Quote: Ex told me that my 'other woman' had gone back to her 'Ex' husband. What are they? Sisters or friends? How would your ex wife know what your girlfriend does? [quote](600km drive just for a day's visitation.)

Mate if your not on your $1000 a day move closer to your daughter.
You'll end up another fatigue statistic driving that far especially if you do it after work then late at night to get back to work.
1200km in 48hrs is not healthy[/quote]



good advice Jas.. worth looking at!

if your little girl is worth travelling all that way to see she is worth moving closer too.

maybe you are living your life through the "its all about ME" syndrome..just maybe..

sometimes if we put our own feelings aside and do whats best for someone else...[in this case your daughter] sometimes life takes on a different outlook..

I hope you find happiness.. it doesnt come in a bottle..unfortunately and I for one am not sure what Happy is anymore..but your little girl deserves her dad and you will see it in her eyes..and happy smiles..

Yeah somehow she 'knows' but I didn't get drawn into it wether true or not. I'm just there for my daughter now.
I do know the 'tired' signs and just pullover for a snooze. Its all thats needed.
The idea of moving closer to my daughter is a sound reasoning. Alas, I'm stuck out here for another 6 months as I couldn't move during the difficult Xmas/New Years period.
I think being where I am is like 'neutral' territory between the Ex in Sydney and the 'other' in Melbourne - both nearly equal distance coincidently.

I've just been set up on a date with a local here 'as a favour', but in truth, I'm not interested or just don't have the energy or just don't want to get hurt or just, just, just. Will make the effort to allow her to enjoy a good 'night out' though.
As I got shafted from the 'gravy train' job, I'm now working a back-breaking process job (any job is the best job in the world), but I've gotta work to doing work more 'suited' to me and think of another way to make money or another way to at least improve my life for the betterment of those around me.

It_is_the_Darkness wrote on Feb 5^th, 2012 at 7:39pm:

Yeah somehow she 'knows' but I didn't get drawn into it wether true or not. I'm just there for my daughter now. I do know the 'tired' signs and just pullover for a snooze. Its all thats needed. The idea of moving closer to my daughter is a sound reasoning. Alas, I'm stuck out here for another 6 months as I couldn't move during the difficult Xmas/New Years period. I think being where I am is like 'neutral' territory between the Ex in Sydney and the 'other' in Melbourne - both nearly equal distance coincidently. I've just been set up on a date with a local here 'as a favour', but in truth, I'm not interested or just don't have the energy or just don't want to get hurt or just, just, just. Will make the effort to allow her to enjoy a good 'night out' though. As I got shafted from the 'gravy train' job, I'm now working a back-breaking process job (any job is the best job in the world), but I've gotta work to doing work more 'suited' to me and think of another way to make money or another way to at least improve my life for the betterment of those around me.

you have to stop feeling sorry for yourself jas..

if you wear your heart on your sleeve people kind of back away..and when you go out with another lady she doesnt wat to spend the night listening to your sorry tail of woman,..

move on matey only you can do it..from one relationship you got a gorgeous daughter...dwell on that instead of the negatives..

the dark side will just eat away at you..

Guess I've gotta be a [L]oser at something Cods.
Something lost is something gained.
May just have my daughter and a lot of cool female friends from now on?

I'm just dissapointed that (my) a marriage didn't work out for me and 'true love' passed me by as well.

Now I'm just seeing what life has in store for me instead and I don't mean another marriage and another true love.

It_is_the_Darkness wrote on Feb 7^th, 2012 at 10:20pm:

Guess I've gotta be a [L]oser at something Cods. Something lost is something gained. May just have my daughter and a lot of cool female friends from now on? I'm just dissapointed that (my) a marriage didn't work out for me and 'true love' passed me by as well. Now I'm just seeing what life has in store for me instead and I don't mean another marriage and another true love.

you still sound gloomy.. if you look for a dark place believe me you will find it...

I dont know of anyone that hasnt done it tough really tough through their lives..we all have we get over it we move on without too many expectations..just glad we have what we have..

remember the old saying..

it is better to have loved and lost.

than never to have loved at all..

hearts dont break jas.. a bit of bruising.never killed anyone..

True Cods.

I think the pain will always be there and in a way, I hope I don't forget.
All will be well.

It_is_the_Darkness wrote on Feb 10^th, 2012 at 7:37pm:

True Cods. I think the pain will always be there and in a way, I hope I don't forget. All will be well.

thats the spirit... dont let them win

always be in charge..you are the only one that can pull your socks up..and that goes for self esteem as well.

Your daughter is the most important thing in your world, OR SHE SHOULD BE,mate. Worry about your relationship with her and make sure that is as good as it can be, all the other sh it will sort it self out.

True Skippy.
My daughter is the most important thing (person) in my world now.
I've been lucky to know people who've said that they've lived a very happy life with two sets of parents and four sets of grandparents, etc.
Others have said that it was unhappiness.
(Some parents staying together can  be an unhappy experience)
It would be nice to have another woman in my life, nicer still if it was the 'other' woman. But regardless, they would have to understand the importance of my daughter. I'm prepared to go without, rather than neglect my daughter's needs.

It_is_the_Darkness wrote on Feb 11^th, 2012 at 4:45pm:

True Skippy. My daughter is the most important thing (person) in my world now. I've been lucky to know people who've said that they've lived a very happy life with two sets of parents and four sets of grandparents, etc. Others have said that it was unhappiness. (Some parents staying together can  be an unhappy experience) It would be nice to have another woman in my life, nicer still if it was the 'other' woman. But regardless, they would have to understand the importance of my daughter. I'm prepared to go without, rather than neglect my daughter's needs.

Relationships are hard, mate, you gotta work on them. My son is the most important thing in the world to me, because of this I give and take with my wife a lot more than I would if I didn't have him.

All the more reason to go without I guess.
Was set up, by a friend,  to go on a date here with another sole parent, same football teams in common for starters.
But I let the hint drop that I'm not really interested and she let me slide by.

Oh my! :o
The 'other woman' has just made a reappearance back where it all began.

Oh dear.
The 'other' woman has been writing bad things about me upon another Forum. Did I really hurt her that bad because it didn't work out.

"...by the time he realised his mistake, it was too late to turn back and now he walks forever - in shadow."
:(

Well today I was just told my court date for Divorce is set and yesterday I was delivered my court date for an AVO.

How am I doing?
Well, its my own fault for getting married and falling in love. So not too well at the moment. :(

it doesnt look like you will be moving on anytime soon then Jas.


if you carry around that "poor me" chip on your shoulder much longer you will be a basket case..

its better to have loved and lost, than to not have loved at all..

Actually Cods, I think its more like "Ignorance is Bliss."

Why an AVO?

Annie Anthrax wrote on Jan 26^th, 2012 at 1:00pm:

Quote: I think I have a 2% chance. I think you're being optimistic.

;D ;D Quite

The AVO is because a Writing friend told me to do a Blog for some therapeutic Writing. A lot of my Writing can be dark, brutal, confronting - which has got some amazing reactions and positive feedback.
So I wrote a short peice based upon the Nick Cave & Kylie Minogue collaboration song. Where I was charged for the murder of the 'other woman' whose body was found in some Wetlands. I guess it was my way of trying to kill the 'need' for her. I deleted the post after a few days - BUT, the other woman ended up being alerted to it and took it as a DEATH THREAT and along with other efforts to contact her (very minimal mind you - respecting her request to be left alone by the majority and respecting my need to get her back in as little a way as possible).

I guess though that since we had the 'fight' - I've been on the losing end and now I have lost the fight now that the Police have given me the [L]oser Certificate (AVO).

The horrible thing about this is that just as my now Ex-Wife has made a big change in my life in regards to my Daughter, this 'other woman' ("Soulmate" in her own words) seems to have a real big effect on me for some reason - but what?
I've been obsessed before. Which is being just upset.
Its never affected me like this before. (I wont go into detail) Where my health and life have suffered.

I sometimes wonder if I should 'contest' this AVO?
...anyway, how could I harm her unless she drove all the way up here to go to the Wetlands - wouldn't she be stalking me? ;)

Everything has gone so sour. :(

Well I've got someone to request for me for the AVO to be cancelled and I will respect the wishes unofficially under similar circumstances. I didn't really want to go down and see her again, under such circumstance and especially when I would be forced to contest the AVO.

It_is_the_Darkness wrote on Jan 27^th, 2012 at 9:40am:

Wow. First time 'she' came back in my dream last night. A very wonderful and affectionate moment, but that wasn't before we had to have it out. Sad I know - just a dream. I know you all may dissagree here (I think?) but it is cruel for someone to find 'true love' after they are married and crueler still to have that 'true love' slip from their fingers. I'm 40+ ...haven't I waited long enough? My soon former (few months to go) wife and mother of my daughter? Well, originally she was upset and didn't want to loose me. But once she realised that the 'other woman' had moved on, she said over the phone from a neighbours (big) house (his wife left him too. Although he earned $100,000+, she said there was no 'spark') that "She never really loved me. She just didn't want to see me in love with 'her'." Ouch. So Annie. By all means, get that Cat-o-9-tails out and whip me into shape here! What am I missing?

Two nights with a couple of experienced fire breathing whores, and a months subscription to an internet porn site will have you back in the game in no time. :)
Your just feeling unwanted right now.

Going down to Melbourne (Court) this month.
There I will admit defeat and surrender.
I lost the fight and now accept the AVO ...the [L]oser Certificate with utter humiliation.

...she'll come back to me though.  ;)

Well I've returned from Melbourne. It was quite an upsetting moment, but I think it was more to do with her being there as well and ...well, there couldn't be any 'love' expressed. The court staff were sympathetic to our situation on both counts and I recieved a reduced AVO.

My Ex-wife (Divorce due in July) rang on behalf of my 2 year old daughter who could sense my upset 1200km away and I recieved the call once I was back home in the Riverina. My Ex - didn't want a bar of me and hung up after I had some time with my daughter on the phone.

So here I am. I think I'll give relationships a miss for a while. :(

Had some changes in my life recently.
Mostly my trip to South Australia.
Now its a case of having escaped my marriage in Sydney
I must keep the 'other woman' from Melbourne at bay. The AVO helps.
Until then, I've got it good.
I would make it better by moving to SA, but thats too far away from my daughter - not a hard decision to make.

So here I am still, in the Riverina,
shaken, but not stirred.

Is this your work Jasin?

'Y' is a crooked letter
and Z is no better

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